Talking to People

This sounds crazy but my ex-job has helped me with my talking skills.
I was working in retail so its expected of me to approach customers if they need assistance or answer any questions they have.

When I started the internship, my manager would always tell me how to stand to look 'approachable' for customers to talk to and she always told me to make eye-contact so I won't look 'closed off'. She was basically teaching basic things that I usually don't do because I like to avoid strangers. She also told me that the customers also feel as awkward as I felt haha which made me feel better. In Burbbery, its expected for us to greet and shadow a customer. When I started, I hated it because firstly, I hate greeting/ approaching people. It makes me super anxious because I never know if people are going to respond but again, my manager told me that when people don't respond its their problem for being rude not mine. So   after 3 months of working there, I think I've learnt a lot of people skills which for me helps with my talking skills. This sounds super weird but I had to practise talking to all customers who came in just in case I got a mystery shopper who rates the service. So I was always put on the spot but after a month, I got use to it and wasn't afraid anymore.

Dr. Ivan Joseph illustrates how negative self-talk does not help with confidence. I really related to this because I'm the most pessimistic person . To me, after achieving something, I am very happy but then I sit and I'm like this is expected. 
However, I am trying to not think like that anyone. I am trying to see that achievements to everyone is different.

urgh..

image from rookiemag.com

Im not going to lie - information systems is harder than i thought it was going to be.
I'm a little   very worried because I don't think I tried hard enough for this subject know that I haven't tried hard enough. I've been focusing on accounting and ecos because repeating that for the 3rd time would be a seriously indication of 'BCOM is not your thing lisa!'/ 'Time to move on' and that would be sad because thats TWO years wasted.

and in addition to this, this random guy told me that I should totally just drop out and 'follow my dreams' and as cliche as that sounds i just sat there and i was like YES! you're making life sound so beautiful. So right now - I'm in this slump. Like i just feel urgh*
I know that I have to carry on this degree because I reread my pros and cons slideshow of 'dropping out vs. degree first' from last year and its just too stupid for me to quit now.

ANYWAYS, My sisters boyfriend little brother who was about to take IS (but changed last minute) recommended coding academy. Its really awesome because its online so I don't have to have the application installed onto my computer which has been a problem because the laptop we have at home is so old that the C Sharp application won't install haha

also, i resigned from my job today. I didn't think I was going to be so sad from it but having nothing to do on a friday afternoon really made me feel more icky like I came home and didn't really know what to do. I know that I should be studying but when theres 'more' time I always feel the need to create playlists that associate with my mood or like make a collage slash read something that will inspire me TO DO something like make notes or organise stuff but it then becomes too overwhelming  and I end up sitting  - stressed from thinking of having to do stuff. it really is a terrible roller coaster of doing nothing and stressing over nothing which is why I kinder  liked my job because it would be work and then do homework and then sleep and that was it. Anyways, I resigned mostly because exams and that having no weekends to study really messed with my mind and my parents.

The group project is way more hectic that any other group work project. Tanielle did express to us that she was disappointed with us as a whole as we didn't respond very well on the whatsapps group and that she got very stressed and anxious from it. I felt really bad because I was not in that week and the communication over whatsapp really isn't very good ever so i understand where she's coming from. We all, however, agreed to improve on this for milestone 3.


*Urgh - a mixture of negative feelings such as confused/empty/regret

Time Management

I've been pretty stressed but i think thats good. I have work on monday, wednesday (if theres no group meetings) and weekends. My job has actually helped me organised my time better. I'm forced to use time that I have to study where as I usually just sit around and procrastinate and then never actually get to the work. I've also read that making lists of what I have to do also helps.

It actually calms me down when I have it written down like 'thats all lisa. time to focus!' because I find that when its in my mind, I'm usually freaking out because I make it 'bigger' than it is. 

UPDATE: I'm surprisingly passing accounting and ECOS:D I'm so scared for these subjects!

Writing

refer to reflective review ( PDP 2)